One step at a time

Sunday, August 24, 2008

went out in the afternoon. morning hahah two sticks lle then took a warm bath.
slept fer hours until afternoon then went out to town with friends walkwalk.
suddenly thought of zh his brithday called him then went to amk hub find him.
very cold llarhs. the whole day raining. at orchard struck in the rain.
then rush to find him after that walked to the lan shop saw yu ping &him.
walked to kfc eat. nicenice llarhs.
then acompany zh to play basketb awhile jiu meet xk at hub.
saw him laughed all the way but i think he angry with me.
xk took zh &yp expantion out. then they keep on say therr say here.
acompany them walked until my legs very tired about 0600pm went home.
now feel llik sleeping.

i dont know how to explain how im feeling right now.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

morning didnt went to canteen. assembley stood behind.
first lesson was cpa. do all the lighting world first dont know whad der.
until lesson ended. next was maths mr wong foo kit.
sat therr do filing &helped panda to do too. busy all the way.
bell rang they went fer recess but lincoln acompany me stayed in class.
bridget &tracy also stayed in class. then i took lighter from lincoln &burnt the lletter.
it was quite llong &some classmates were in the class after i burnt it.
after that was english. having fun with ms keiko.
then joked with friends until the next lesson. so that i can feel better.
didnt do her work then she said very sad.
i wrote two sentences then she llik northing to say. but she very cute.
walked to yp room &greeted after that llistened to mr taufiq all the craps.
then went up to class agn to do survey. was personal llarhs.
&it llet me reminds of him. but its giving me up.
talked to mr shafiq fer entertainment. he cute.
after that walked down to yp room. formed a circle &played game.
school finished walked to block buy hahah with christina dear, lincoln bro and denica.
claudia didnt followed us because she have to do finish her maths work.
however he still have one pack. then went off &slack.
after awhile christina dear find her sis.
denica baobeiis dont know go wherr mayb find her stead.
me &lincoln bought staffs then went off. talktalktalktalktalk non stop.
saw him &friend walking. actually i didnt realised until he shouted my name.
it was actually touched. dont say lle.
walked until the mrt station then took off to khabit saw kimkai.
on the way chat about na staffs. true llarhs.
its good to go na then throw people diapolma fer them to see.
reached lle he also took off at same station then took cab go yishun.

confusion.
i felt sorry fer whad i did.
dont worry blame it on me.
if lloving you needs me to llie to you agn i will never want to tell go with you.
but just lloving you serectly.
i dont expect you to llove me though.
i still llove you so.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

You promised me it will nort become llik this.

But I knew these was going to happen.
Am I missing you too much or lloving you too much?
Guess you should b hating me fer doing that.
The reason I stayed with you because i wanted you to understand.
Boy yes we both need a break.
I dont know how to face you. I dont know whad to do. I know I shouldnt say this now.
Is nort I dont understand you. You always say I think too much.
Is you lleaving me. Is nrot I dont trust you.
Because I lloved you too much. I had enough.
I am lleting go now. You should b happy anytime can find me.
Remember the words I told you.
This few days were sweet &it worth fer me to die off llik that.
Now that you know i have llied to you at the starting. I guess you are hating me now.
But if I lleft one last breath I would tell I loved you was true.

in school northing really happened.

you break in my llife &walked away.
thanks fer everything boy.
&this few days it will become our memoirs in our heart. yar?
am i insane or i really dont llove him lle?
all this awhile i llied you that i love from the start.
but the very last moment i told you i love you was true.
i guess it was too late. i knew you will angry &hate me.
feel weird to me after all right? 200808 webnesday i woke up acompany you in school fer dc.
thankyou fer the sweet. although it just a sweet which cost cents.
but it will make me smile fer the whole day.
hate me if you want. i dont know whad to say i dont know how to face you.
i dont know why i dont know how i dont know when i actually lloved you.
promises from the start was just comforting yourself.
i knew this would happened. but i dont want to lose you. understand mahs?
did all this because i can see you still llove her.
dont keep on say i think too much or whad. but seriously is nort i think too much.
i know i wrote all these you will nort turn back.
sorry boy.
i still llove you?

Friday, August 8, 2008

alot of students didnt come llarhs. dear they all didnt come but i came llerhs.
walked to school with tc korkor this morning bought hahah.
all the way acompany him fer the whole day in school must thank baobeiis meimei.
6 bucks i only take 5 to 6 sticks. dont say lle. always i pay morr der.
somemorr morning i paid the most the pack they take. bully nor?
went to parade square &llisten the talks &performance. talked with ken &chun rong until the performance ended.
went up to class then ms kamal told me to go parade square join the class llarhs. lol.
the classes also went up to their classrooms lle. told me to go parade square morning didnt wash her mind. laughs.
then saw unknown &told him to give me the pack of hahah.
then he gave after that i went up to classroom.
ah dog suddenly went up to my classroom said want take from me.
i thought tc korkor give him der at last he take from me der.
he told me he very angry cause i told it from unknown.
but then recess went to find him acompany him go hahah.
after that he bought drinks llet me drink llerhs. so good nor.
awhile bell rang lle then walked up to hall see to performance.
boring all the way nor. but have tc korkor acompany.
siting behind was xianfu &friend they want eat my doufu.
then i boxed them. after that continced to see the performance.
1145am tried to find someone to contract my baobeiis son zi to celebrate his birthday.
accompanied tc korkor after school fer awhile to hahah then took cab rushed down to tao payoh.
i spent 8bucks llarhs. then i ran off &find him. afraid he ran away.
went to ps with birthday boy to eat walk the whole ps.
then went back to tao payoh eat llong john silver he treated me llarhs. so good.

we had a llong quarrel fer that.
but boy you cant bear to lleave me.
im afraid im going to miss you agn.
wherr should we start?
i guess you love my present dont you?
happy 16th birthday my boy.
i guess im lloving you once morr.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

cant really rmb whad happened in school today.
so this post going to b short.
because after school i went 520 to slack with claudia acompany.
then walked to hub shopshop talk &laughed alot. llong time didnt go out with her lle.
i miss those times man. but i want to play basketb llarhs.
i want money money money to go shopping eat silm play important buy whad i want to buy.
love is just a bussiness the yp teachers was right at all.
ooo.. yar i havent do the dnt things. how?
anyone know how to do mahs? those people who is my classmate you know mahs teach me nor.
it is about time fer sleep lle readers.

since you walked off.
to me money is the only love.

Monday, August 4, 2008

llong story fer today. but im nort going to say all?
morning went to school very early llarhs.
'saturday went to sentosa &saw my sis. she shoot kia llarhs. she told my mother alot of things. &some were nort true. then yesterday all the way we didnt talk to each other. she want say she say nor. as llong as i didnt do that jiu can lliaos as whad my mother told me.'
'sunday went to bugis watch mummy. hahah. funny but interesting. bought one skirt fer myself. i dont want to spent money alr. im llik a killer of my dad llarhs. i felt sorry. im trying very hard out from my heart. i want to control myself. laughs. at night then go home. reached home fer awhile went to mother's room she scolded me llarhs. all cause of her? cause of misunderstanding. was angry at that time.'
back. reached school canteen talktalktalktalktalk as per normal.
saw sky korkor &friends they told me to go over therr said 7th month cannort do this do that.
scarey nor. then walked to bridget that side talktalktalk awhile rang bell.
mr signh still the same llarhs.
'your socks your socks'. then alot of aunoment stand until leg pain.
first period was dnt fer monday. then kept on make mr nathan &he only know how to act cute llarhs.
ooo.. need to do presentation. but i dont know how to do llarhs. teach me llerhs.
after that recess time walked down to canteen. hungry &tired but i just sat down therr only.
then cannort stand alr i walked to buy food &eat.
went back to class &it was science. mrs yap had abit changed lliaos but this thing must understand nor.
because we always make alot of noises.
all the way very boring until english lesson. ms keiko rock on llerhs. played &laughed with her &claudia.
panda was very angry then keep on whack the table. because xiaodurian took his cardigan from panda.
then went panda got back xiaodurian obur very smelly. washed also cannort washed away.
after that panda questioned me why llet her wear.
he all the way very angry. then claudia sis throw him money at his face.
after awhile actually me &claudia sis went down her class to tell her expect her to do something.
but they are having exams. then awhile we saw mr ang walked past.
then we walked off lliaos.
&finally cme is the last lesson didnt stay at classroom but go to the hall.
llisten the teacher talktalktalk until lleson ended.
after school went out from panda. then llong story llarhs.
but i dont know to say claudia sis was stupid at that time or smart nor.
about 0200pm plus everyone go home lle.
dine sis &me walked to cheng san cc slack therr with friends.
about 0300pm plus we went home lle.

therr's no words that we both could start to say to each other.
because it's too much to say.
whad should i say?